Insomnia Ramblings

Yesterday was the best day I've had so far. I was up all day. I think the latest I've made it up to now was about 5:00. I did laundry all day, which involves going up and down a few stairs. At this point, that counts as exercise because it raises my heart rate and makes me pant a bit. I often have to rest on the couch on the way back and forth from the bedroom to the laundry room. In spite of this, I felt relatively normal all day. Although I go in for another treatment tomorrow, my week off is close at hand, and that's a great feeling.

In 2008, at this point in my treatment, I weighed 15 lbs less than I do now, I looked like hell and I was bald. Not only bald, without eyelashes and eyebrows. Let me tell you, that looks freaky. My hair is thinner now, and every time I wash it the shower is covered in my hair, but I do have lots of hair. If you saw me right now you wouldn't know anything is going on with me. I don't look sick. Depending on what my oncologist decides will be my next course of treatment, I may not lose my hair. As long as I am able to continue practicing yoga I will continue to gain strength. I confess it makes me feel a bit strange to look normal when I am not working and there are fundraisers in the works. My low blood count isn't something you can see. Neither are the many days I am too sick to get out of bed.

This is a testament to how strong I was going into surgery and treatment. I know I say it all the time, but thank goodness for yoga and yoga flirt!! My friend Kelli and I are going to take YF level one together when I'm well, and I hear Janice is interested too. It would be great to get a group of women together to do it, so let me know if you're interested!! Part of the YF fundraiser is an intro to YF class, so check it out local girlfriends!! March 26 at the SLO studio.

Yoga this morning with Jean, tomorrow with Cathy. Maria is coming to clean our house today. She's a gem and we could not do without her. Sue and Chris are coming over to discuss the fundraiser they and the junior high are organizing. We will go into SLO for my per-chemo blood draw. I hope my port works this time. Lately they can't get blood from it so I get the port stick and then the arm stick. Not a huge deal but my veins are developing scar tissue and becoming problematic. This is a busy day for me!!

Namaste, Jill